I’ve been on holiday, it was my birthday yesterday and we had a death in the family. It’s a potent time for reflection.
Being in your late twenties- as a young professional living in London- is a fairly complicated time emotionally, because everything is slowing down. It’s becoming simpler.
It can feel like I’m running out of time.
The heady days of exam results, internships, first jobs, first kisses, first homes are behind me. And the next stage of first mortgage, getting married, producing babies, getting the next big promotion are still a way ahead. It can feel like living in limbo.
As a slightly obsessive overachiever, this can be a difficult transition to manage. That there will be some years with no major achievements and no big life moments to tick off the list. And that’s part of adjusting to the idea that at 28 years old, 10 years after I legally became one, I am starting to feel like an adult.
My Grandma died last week aged 103. She was an incredibly present and important part of my life. Ever since I was tiny, people told me she would die. “I expect I’ll live to see Cordelia go to school, sadly probably not for Alexander.” My brother is just 2 years younger than me. But when it happened last week, I was stunned. I still can’t believe that I’ve opened my last ever birthday card from her, that we won’t finish another jigsaw together, that she won’t hold my face in her hands with a look of beaming, glowing joy again.
So it’s been a topsy turvy emotional week, but when I saw this print from Not On The High Street, it seemed to summarise how I am feeling at the moment. For some reason when I read it I hear it in my head with a Gandalf esque cry- THIS TOO SHALL PASS!
Nothing is static. Good times, bad times, times in the flat, times at Boden, times visiting my grandma three times a year in her Bodmin house, the sadness I’m feeling now, they all will pass. And what I have continued to learn this year, is how important it is to squeeze every ounce of joy out of my incredibly lucky day to day life.
I’m having a surprise birthday day out with Edward today. Happy days. I hope you have a very happy day too.